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Dear Mama

11:10am | May 13, 2017

Dear Mama,

When I was a little girl I always wondered why everyone else’s parents were present to cheer their kids on at our after school events when I had no one.  I’d see parents happily hug their kids in excitement and congratulate them with so much affection.  Every time I saw the crowd cheering for their kids, I couldn’t ignore the fact that I was alone.  I’d beg for you to come watch me run, sing in the choir or compete in theater, but to no avail.  So I created a loving space in my own mind and heart.  As time went on, I grew resentful and took it as if you didn’t care. During those times, I couldn’t see you because I was clouded with hurt and disappointment.  But Mama, as an adult, I can SEE you.

I see that you were only human trying your best to survive in a new country.  I see that you were only 17 when you were forced to get married in a refugee camp in order to survive and escape a war torn country.  I see that you lost your father during the war and never really healed from that deep loss.  I see that you and Dad tried your best to bring both sides of the family to the US.  I see that you constantly GIVE to your family even when it’s not appreciated.  I see that you test the true meaning of unconditional love even though you constantly get burned.  I see that you weren’t around at my school events because you were working insane hours to help pay the mortgage.  I see that when you said “no” it really meant “we can’t afford it”.   I see that when you became sick with kidney disease, you had to say goodbye to your independence which I know has been difficult on your strong spirit.  I see that you showed love by keeping us alive as you learned to do as a survivor.  I see that you’ve sacrificed your own life so that all five of your children could have a fighting chance in a new country.  I see that a mother’s love knows no bounds and that rings so true with you.

Mom Dad Old Portrait
Mom Hmong Clothes
Hmong Wedding Refugee Camp
Fam Photo

Mama, I want to tell you that it’s OK.  I’m happy, I’m healthy and I have survived!  I’ve faced some tumultuous times in my life, but somehow I still made it through and it’s because of YOU.  This stubborn, strong and confident apple didn’t fall too far from the tree of mom and it’s not stopping any time soon.  Everything I have done has been to make you proud and know that your sacrifice wasn’t for nothing.  So mama, don’t worry I got you now.  Just let go and allow yourself to be HAPPY.

Your Daughter,

Theo

Theo Yang

Theo Yang

Not one to see life pass her by, Theo is a true Leo who attacks life with a thirst for living life to the fullest.Rarely coloring inside the lines, she is a Swiss army knife of sorts...a renaissance woman you could say, selling digital ads by day, running her production companies at night and launching her long-awaited music career on the weekends.Let just say, she's got a lot of lemons and is making some tasty lemonade.
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  1. Theo this was heartwarming to read..thank you for sharing your experiences with your Mother. If she read this, I’m sure she’s proud of you both as a human being and a lovely daughter with a feisty independent streak.
    Blessings!

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